This week, Rylee went from being a "too small" baby to being one of the bigger babes on the block! She is almost two weeks bigger than her gestational age. I can't complain because she is healthy. We do have to start thinking C-section though. I am obsessed with her...Scott and I talk to her, sing to her and dance with her.
Today hit me though as I thought about deeply seeded fears I have about "screwing her up." I just pray that I can give up control of this whole experience and be free to play and let my imagination run with how beautiful this experience has been. One thing I do know is that Scott will be a wonderful dad. He will be a great balance to my OCD lists and rules and Rylee will surely delight in her dad's silly nature.
As heavy as some moments have been in these 7 months, I realize the journey has yet to begin. I keep thinking about getting to the due date, but I am having a hard time imagining a baby living in that crib and messing up the cute outfits I have laid out. HA! I know anyone who reads this will laugh at my naivete...but I'll learn. :)
As March approaches, I anticipate its content with such excitement. Seattle will only become more beautiful, the Freemont Market will again become my favorite Sunday past time and I get to meet up with friends in honor of Rylee. I am so grateful, and so I enter this next chapter with arms open wide...
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